List Poem

The dense, floating clouds

fluffy as the embroidered blanket,

long for the feeling

my mother wrapped me when I was a baby.

The boundless stretch of the azure sky

limpid as a mirror

reflect the images of my family,

but they fogged vaguely                     

my memory is losing in a labyrinth

rouses me to regain it

yet the time and space just tortuous

torment my mind

Is this the heaven?

Though my soul is here
my mind is still lingering among the world

I can’t leave it behind
I can’t abandon without revisiting my family and friends

Life is too short for me
The last goodbye

disappears when I haven’t said it out loud
The memories flash
I can barely remember

the happiness when my brother lived in my mom’s belly
the excitement when I played roller coaster in Disneyland

the inquietude when slow Internet speed with noisy mosquitoes
the disappointment when books out of stock
the fidget of scattered holes
the frustration when I can’t memorize the Spanish grammar

preterit and imperfect tenses with vocabularies

bother my mind even when I was sleeping

terrible French homework
misunderstand the meaning
English- Mr. McCool
prefixes with suffixes
disturb my leisure
However, they are the memories
gradually cover with veils
remote and vague
The memory that I want to regain
is my family and friends
wishing to look at them
wishing to embrace them
wishing to stay with them
My soul is wound by invisible hurt
it can’t back to the past
treasure the time

that I live with them
Right now,
it’s still waiting for reincarnation
to meet them.